Hi, could we be friends?

Don't you all have that one friend that you just have that gut feel that you two could develop a closer bond to become a bestie of sorts? Well I'm not talking about a relationship here, but more of friendship.

I mean yea they might only be mere acquaintances till date, but you do get the feeling sometimes that you could develop this into a much deeper friendship.

The both of you share similar interest, likes and dislikes, (which is especially important if you have a very unique hobby that is not shared by many). You hit off from the very start, and despite not knowing each other well, you do not sense any tinge of awkwardness between.

You want to be more than just a familiar face, though you've already known the other party for months.

You make the first step, you try to talk, it all goes well. But the response just seems something that's more of being cordial and polite.

You try to set a meeting, but it was evaded. Once, twice, thrice. Maybe it was a hint. You're disappointed, because you know it isn't easy to find someone you can clique with, with similar hobbies and a good personality. Friends to you are very important because you depend on them, and hope they will always be there for you, to share your joys and sorrows.

All in all, maybe the person was just being nice to begin with, as how he would be to everyone else.

Dying

I'm in such dire straights right now, nobody can understand how I feel, mentally/emotionally/physically.

Sometimes I wish help can be rendered to those who truly needs it desperately, magically.

And for those that are trying to decipher from the few lines and already judging...

Fuck off tyvm

Epicurious

Hello february! New month, new post, new beginnings! Haha try'na think positive here after the past slew of emo posts.

 

So during the holidays, LAST YEAR (a little backdated I know! :X), I had my first radio interview experience! Ok its not an ACTUAL radio interview that goes on air, but it was for Serene's school final assesment, so she asked me to help out cause she needed someone that have some interesting news to share. LOLOL

 

"Waddup yoooo??"

Scrambling to check if she got save the recording or not! hahahaha!

 

It was quite an interesting experience though, except that I had to wake up early LOL! Talked about my involvement in SPELL, and my interest in the fashion scene.

I know radio interview is nothing to some people, especially since there's a SPACE radio in SP, but why my friends no want to invite me on to the show leh??? HAH actually I asked them this question before and they said "cause you aren't famous enough". =.= OK CAN

 

Serene gave me a treat over at EPICURIOUS thereafter, had a hard time trying to find the place, its somewhere in the middle of clarke quay.

 

 

Some vodka in the morning?

 

Choco-nana

which is basically just like french toast, with icing sugar, nutella, banana and strawberries. Didn't taste very nice cause the berries were to sour and the nutella was diluted.

My smoked salmon eggs benedict, which was like the last set of the day!

They have very limited eggs ben for some reason? The eggs ben were nice for the first few mouths, egg was runny, sauce was not too bad, but after a while it just tastes so gelate, so I suggest you might wanna share if you do try this out. The potatoes on the other hand were just tasteless, don't really taste any herbs too even though they added alot.

 

Serene's, can't really remember what its called but I think its some mashed potato thingy?

Wasn't that fantastic either. Well basically the food was just so-so, but probably the reason why its so popular is its price. I can't remember how much it costs (since I didn't pay), but I think the total meal of the two breakfast set, choco-nana, and 2 drinks cost within 50 bucks? It's actually not as expensive as compared to other brunch cafes.

 



Do NOT read...

***READ THIS AT YOUR OWN DISCRETION, IF YOURE UPSET OR ANGRY AFTER READING THIS, DON'T SAY I NEVER WARN YOU***

**This is my space and I write what I want, if you're unhappy then please leave**

I have to be honest, I didn't want to blog about this post previously. I mean yea, at the point of time 1 month back, I was filled with anger and just wanted to vent my frustrations here, but I didn't cause I felt that it was a relieve that it was over and just wanted to move on. But last night, you just HAD to bring it all up again and back to me. Well it may always seem that I'm that bad person and I'm the one at fault, but hey so much for gender equality, I think I deserve my ranting space, and guys shouldn't always HAVE to be the magnanimous gentlemanly person that the society stereotypes, not to certain people at least! You can carry on your sob story of sorry antics, and have everyone pitying you; I don't give a damn. Not to say that I'm in no wrong either, but honestly I've heard a lot about you too that no one dares to bring to the surface for fear of more drama.


So the story goes: last night I was trying to rush through my project cause I was gonna have the presentation and submission the next morning, and well there were communication breakdowns and what not and I didn't get to even see the slides ( but this is honestly not the point in this whole post), so I went to tweet stuff as I was angry and worried and annoyed all at the same time.
For one of the tweet, I tweeted something like: "this is like a reminiscence of my previous project, where communication was obviously a problem"
Well well, not that being pissed was not bad enough, SOMEONE had to indirectly shoot me about it, and this is not her first time doing that.
From her, the exact words: "I see...so u never thought that u were in the wrong after all that had happened. I salute u dude."
Well firstly I was talking about my CURRENT PROJECT and not her, so she just by hook or by crook had to bring up something that we are all obviously not happy about. And in all honesty, if She had her conscience clear and all, she wouldn't have tweeted that.
Secondly, I REALLY WASN'T IN THE WRONG ENTIRELY SO STOP SELLING YOU SOB STORY TO EVERYONE TO MAKE YOU LOOK LIKE AN INNOCENT PARTY THAT HAS ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO DO WITH IT!
*FYI, I am not the only one that said this/thinks this way too.

So if you come to think about it, who was the ACTUAL one that wanted to start a series of tweet-war and shoot-backs? Huh?

And then she tweeted something like she has given up TRYING to make things right. Like TRYING?! Are you sure? You didn't even bother to put a "T" to trying.

If you're lost up till now, lemme bring you back to month ago so you'll FULLY understand what's going on. And for those of you who have heard HER side of the story, lemme now share MY SIDE of the story, DETAILED-ly recorded.

I was really excited to work with these bunch of gals at first, especially since I've not worked with one of them before, one that I'm always impressed by her work and presentation skills. Well so I was like an outsider trying to penetrate into a current clique, not much of a problem for me as long as we keep feelings aside. So my that "dear" mate of mine, lets call her Z, allocates us the work each of us had to research respectively. Seems fine so far and I didn't felt like she had any problems with me cause I've worked with her in previous projects.

So we were suppose to get our research done in by our first project meeting, note that it is "BY". And there I was sitting there, staring into space, laptop in front of me with my research all done up, only to see the rest starting to do their research there and then. I mean hey you gotta be fair, if you said to research by meeting, then do so, if you can't make it, then at least tell me right? So I don't have to rush through just to find out that nobody has it done yet. I know you all very close but can there at least be some communication with me? So basically the whole meeting I just sat there and stoned.

Ok so the first meeting, I can let it pass, second meeting, which she basically held it at a time for her own convenience only, we met up to discuss stuff that we were suppose to do during the first meeting. This was when I realize something was not right, whatever suggestions I had would just be shot down almost immediately, or you might seemingly agree at first but push it to the side later on. Body language also give off what is going through a person psychological. You with your back constantly facing me, and not looking at me whenever I was sharing something shows ALOT. I'm so glad there was mediator in the group, which I believed tried very hard to get things together, which I really applaud her. A total team player. Z on the other hand gives the "IDGAF to what you're talking about" face.

I got my message. Z didn't wanna really interact with me, which I only found out at the end of the project that it was due to a build up of previous projects, which she totally didn't tell me despite the group having confrontational talks on TWO separate occasions. She felt that I didn't contribute enough and all for previous projects and so just conveniently decides to give me a cold shoulder for the current project. I can't even begin to understand why someone would choose to tell you this at the end and just let matters snowball, and still expect things to miraculously turn out fine?

I was like a total outsider trying to permeate through, whenever there was any decisions, discussions and dateline, yes especially dateline, I would only know like the day before. HOW IN THE WORLD DO YOU EXPECT ME TO DELIVER OR TO APPEAR FOR MEETINGS IF YOU ONLY CHOOSE TO WANNA INFORM ME AT SUCH A LAST MINUTE?! Yes I accept that my work isn't the best that it could have been, but have you looked at yours? Copying and pasting is no way a grade higher. Being kiasu is also not to any advantage if you don't understand your basic requirements. Most of the time, the mediator had to play as the middleman between me and Z, passing messages across.
Discussions were always between them 3, and I would be the one trying my best to contribute, only to have people lashing at me that I was trying to enforce my idea. Lol joke? How to enforce when I didn't get to be part of a discussion to begin with?

You ask me why I choose not to come for every meeting after, have you seen the way you acted during meetings? For some reason you are always depressed about something, I don't care if its your boyfriend or what but don't bring your feelings in when we are doing work. You'll give the moody face as if everybody owes you something liddat, and the constant ignoring, and you still dare say that I'm very bossy when I communicate ideas across and wants to enforce people to use my idea? Please la I think you are stuck in yr 1? I don't deny that I was like that previously, but for THAT particular project I was really trying to tone down everything.

The thing is no one is absolutely right or wrong, and I am upset over how one project could have affected the rest that was going on concurrently. If you're still living in denial that Im wrong and showing no remorse then I have nothing to say. At least I know I'm trying to put in more effort into my current projects, I may still be a mean person, but believe me I'm really trying.

Yes I'm a horrible person, I'm blunt, bossy,slack, annoying, fat (lol does this matter? Haha) , evil, ungentlemanly, heartless, sacarstic, while you're an angel ok? That deserves all the sympathy.

Let this be the end and not the beginning of a whole other drama.

Boy, why is my life so full of drama?

A whacky clash

Yay, I've finally found a way to self-take some #ootd at home, so I guess I would posting some outfits from time to time.

 

And in case you're wondering, this is sorta what I wear to school normally.